Our family decided to leave our church in 2013, it was a very sad and difficult decision, but one that I know will be blessed. The hardest part for me, was that the people you thought would always have your back~turned on a dime and were sticking a knife in it. I went through several months of bitterness and anger. How could these people treat me and my family this way? Mike also lost his job at UOP due to a huge layoff in August. Could things get any more stressful~unfortunately YES!! In September, I could no longer handle the stress and anxiety and had a severe bout of IBS which was so bad that I passed out while driving home from work one day. Thankfully no one was injured (just a few bruises and black eye for me), but it was a real eye opener. I decided it was time to pick myself up and brush myself off and pull it together and let it go!! Let go of the anger, bitterness and unforgiveness. Which brings me to my word for 2014 GRACE. I want people to show me GRACE~I want to show people GRACE (I am not talking about being a doormat here!!). Does it really matter who was right and who was wrong? What matters is relationships (especially the ones that are important to me)!!
So what are my goals for 2014? Showing GRACE. I also decided that I am going to start being nice to myself!! I recently read an article about this. Why are we so hard on ourselves? I mean, would I treat my family and friends the way I treat myself~NOPE!! For example, if I want to eat a cupcake, why do I make myself feel so guilty about it? I would tell a friend~enjoy the cupcake!! Now I am not saying it is OK to eat cupcakes all the time, but once in a while, enjoy the splurge. If I don't feel like cleaning my house, I am going to give myself a free pass, instead of beating myself up and feeling bad for not doing it. This will be a challenge for me, but if I can do it 50% of the time~GO ME!
I am also going to go back to regular blogging this year!! I have missed it so much!! I am not sure what it will be about, but I am excited to find out. I will keep doing my weekly photo dump and Project Life (and post about my pups!!), that is for sure!! So Today I am going to clean off my messy desk and do some organizing.
Happy 2014 Everyone!! Be nice to yourself!!
Enjoy Today!
